As I start writing this, I would love to make it sound witty and funny but I’ve a feeling it’ll just come out as it is in my brain…which is normally a little scrambled so that’s probably the way it will be written!!
I, like so many hundreds of thousands of people had a FB account.
I would play Bejewelled Blitz until it became an obsession.
Scrabble was another game that had me hooked.
I had a farm, and would worry when on holiday how I would harvest my crops, what would I do if they withered!!
I then discovered another game, Time Travel or something like that!!
It was getting to the point whereby the first thing I did every morning was turn on the computer to see the status of my so-called friends. I then got a new job and every one was on FB and so my friends multiplied and then I had friends of friends…it was all too much! Boy – I’d never been so popular!
The downside of this was that the housework wasn’t getting done, the garden was a mess, my fridge was bare, and I didn’t have time to ring my friends because I was constantly on-line with FB friends…
Hubby would frequently leave for work at 4pm and I would think ‘I’ll just have a coffee and a quick look at FB’ and sit at the PC, more often than not when he returned at 11:30pm I would still be there!!
I’m glad to say that I realised this was taking over and it had to go!! I had to quit FB cold turkey! However, they don’t make it that easy to quit, you have to request a deletion of your account and then leave it inactive for 2 weeks and if you go into your FB account during those two weeks it’s reactivated…so for 2 weeks I tried not to go on the internet and not click on my Facebook, it was really, really difficult, almost unbearable. I felt as though I was being cut off from the world, what was happening, who was saying what, had anyone ‘poked’ me!!!
Well I did it, and initially I suffered from withdrawal symptoms, I was a grouch to live with, I had forgotten what the internet was for! When asked why I had quit, it was like I had some shameful secret. Even now, people look at me with astonishment when I say ‘No I’m not on Facebook’ when most of the rest of the world are!!
I’m not saying for a minute that FB is a bad thing, I think it really does have a place in society, in fact recently it has been a lifeline for many thousands of people in dire situations and has been a fantastic way of letting people know what’s going on in the world when the press aren’t around to report.
But you see with me it’s all or nothing, I don’t have a middle ground, I throw myself into things with 150% and there’s no going back, it’s the same with everything I do…but what normally happens is my enthusiasm wanes and I give up…with FB it was different because there were constantly more and more ways of piquing my interest either via games, forums etc…and so I knew I had to quit.
This sounds incredibly sad doesn’t it? Especially for my age, I’m not a teenager anymore so I can’t use that as an excuse.
So now I’m clean!! Well almost, I have a new drug of choice and that’s WordPress.com!
I like to think that this is a much healthier way of passing my time! It’s enabled me to explore different avenues which I would never have discovered otherwise. I’m more disciplined, by way of my photography, thanks to constructive comments, I feel that I’m improving. By writing, albeit, small pieces of not much intellectual depth, and on an infrequent basis I have found that I am asking myself questions about myself and my character that I would never have questioned in the past, for example my ‘addiction’ to FB. I feel that since I’ve been blogging I’ve become a little more measured in things that I do. I’m still very enthusiastic but my enthusiasm is now more focussed.
I have no idea if this makes sense to anyone but me…but that is my case in point…by blogging I feel as though today’s post has clarified another aspect of my character that hitherto hadn’t been addressed! I find it cathartic. Who needs a psychologist when they have a blog?
And another thing, I’ve never used that word before in my life, I used the word ‘hitherto’ so surely my use of the English language is improving too!!
Oh and another thing, the house is less of a mess, the garden has received some TLC, and the fridge, may not be perfectly arranged but now contains some really good stuff!!
So to all of you Facebookers I wish you well, but for me it’s WordPress from now on!!!